My Baby Boy Ross!

Isn't he a beauty?

Sad to Leave my Mommy!

I am really sad about leaving my mommy tomorrow morning. Its not that hard on me, I mean I miss her don't get me wrong, but she is really upset about it. She misses us all sooo much. But I just keep telling her that she will home in a month, and then when she comes back it won't be long until Spring Break and then Summer and we can all be together a lot more!
Don't take time with your family for granted!!!
xoxxox

....last one. forreal. maybe :)

When I started this blog I wasn't sure what to focus on so I didn't decided on anything. I just decided I was going to write whatever and see what happened. But I think I need to separate everything to make it more organized.
So we will have the following categories:
1. Love
2. Family Stuff
3. Girls who have been hurt.
4. LIfe-general.

Biological means nothing to me.

Tonight, for the first time in a while, my "dad" has been on my mind. I have never gotten to know him for more than a few months at a time. It kills me that he doesn't love me enough or even like me enough to want to get to know me. I know there are tons of people in my life that love me and I have great relationships with people regardless of the love I want to receive from my father. I wish there was a way to contact him and talk to him. Tell him how I feel. I guess not everything can be handed to me on a silver platter, huh? My main wish is that he could have been a part of this year. My senior year. I have made so many memories that he will never be a part of (and likely never know of). But that's that. I dont feel "okay" about it. I feel let down about it. I feel angry about it. But I think eventually I will become content with it. Move on. Not want to know him anymore. Maybe I just want to think that. I want to be mad at him. To hate him. But I know I never will. I will always love him and want him to be apart of my life.

Somethings never change.